Outer vs Inner

My Inner Human Life is in danger of being eclipsed by my Outer Human Life at present. It is certainly true that what I could is not necessarily what I should do. My music video was released today and watching it back I have to say that it seems like another stage of my life now. There was a time when I shared things that I would not share now, and that video is an example of that. An old friend remarked that the video is very 'sexual' and I redefined her description, specifying that the song is about intimacy and sensuality. Unfortunately I have learned a little more about human nature since then, and realized that for the majority of people sensual=sexual and there is nothing I can do to change that. I am currently planning a new video with the same director and I have to say this one will be in a very different style. Partly because it is a different song, but also because I am much more private now than I was then. Another friend of mine commented the other day that no matter what I do or wear, people are attracted to me, physically or as a person, or both. If that is true I can see that I would benefit from being more boundaried in the way I present myself. It's not like I walk around town in a miniskirt! But it doesnt take much apparently to inspire some people. As I'm writing this I'm thinking 'this is complete rubbish! how can this be true?' in terms of the way people seem to see and read me and their intentions towards me. I don't want to become suspicious and guarded. There has to be a half-way house?