Yesterday was of course my third day of fasting. I have been eager to blog, but no time. Some interesting adjustments this week: My boss got fired. I find myself, short of tasks and despite offering my services to the interim replacement shipped from the U.S. for the most part ignored. Should she decide to take me up on my offer of assistance with the recruitment, however, I may have the opportunity to show just how useful and adaptable I can really be. That will be a refreshing change for the better!
Under my present evel of self scrutiny I am now being even more honest than usual about where my weaknesses lie. Physically speaking the weakness of my constitution is really being put to the test. On Wednesday I had a session with the physio for my shoulder, and knowing his experience with nutrition I asked his advice about my diet. I'm concerned because I am pretty much living on sugar to get me through everything I have to achieve in a day. Since cutting that down drastically and combined with the fasting I find myself experiencing exhaustion to an even greater degree. This life I am leading is not sustainable. The additional energy and time required to shop and cook for myself the kind of things that I need seems impossible to me, but without this I am a physical and emotional wreck! I must create more space in my life for taking care of me. Just for now I am going to ignore the 'how' of that.
When I think about the development and expansion of my massage business and the kind of lifestyle that could give rise to it makes me want to rethink the trip to Marrakech. If I leave my present job and find something part time to support the growth of my business then I will need to invest in a couple of things first, such as my own mac. A friend of my ex reconditions MACs and sells them on so I think I'm on to something there. I want to blitz the driving and get my lisence which of course will cost money, albeit not as much as for most people as again, my ex hub's dad (and grandfather of my son) is a driving instructor. I will also need to get branding going and order business cards and stationery and uniform to give a really professional feel. These are not new plans, but plans I have had for a while, plans I have lacked the focus and motivation to carry out.
Then there are the books with Maria. I need to work with her on those to really get them ready for publisher-fishing! Fortunately we know an already successful writer and illustrator of children's books who will be able to advise us.
On top of this, my childminder wants to get together a group of people we know and discuss how I should move forward with my music. She is basically a one-woman marketing machine, she lives on networking sites (when not working) and has a great deal of enthusiasm for other people's creative ventures. I think time will tell which of these avenues are to be developed and which binned, or at least put on ice. I love variety, but whatever I do needs to be sustainable or at least manageable while it is at the forefront of my attention.
For today, perhaps I should concentrate on food and rest. My eyes are at half mast already and it is only midday. I'm not even fasting today!
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