God is Good

A masterpiece Bistela.... soooo good!

I am no longer counting the days that I fast. Since living more and more in the eternal present time has lost its distinction somewhat and I will refer to a calendar for the date and a clock for the time when necessary. It's a beautiful thing! This morning I watched my son zooming off ahead of me on his scooter under the naked tree branches and I felt a real sense of joy. Thought came to me 'I don't even care what day it is, or what time, I just love this moment!'

My fascination with food continues. I'm so pleased with the results of my endeavours that I have been taking pictures of all the meals I am cooking. They look so pretty after all. There is nothing like a regular fast to make you grateful for the food the Divine has provided. Tonight I am making bread. It is keeping me up far too late but it is also giving me no excuse not to do some chores that I want to keep up with around the flat. 'Well, since I'm waiting for the dough to rise anyway...' bread is precious, and homemade bread is just divine. This particular dough contains sesame and fennel seeds and a little sugar - YUM! I will of course oblige with pictures when they are done... as long as they look as appealing as they are meant to!! In any case the balanced diet that I am now eating is giving me the energy to achieve more. The fasting mentality is keeping me diligent about food preparation and the added nutrition is giving me energy to do more around the home. I still want more space and that will come.

I have aquired an unexpected ally in the form of Mountain Ginger, the company drafted Financial Advisor. He is full of ideas to ensure that I get the best out of life, albeit mainly from a financial/legal perspective. That is just the kind of support that I need! Alhamdulillah.

God is good.

Bingo Moment

Mechwi!

I sit yawning at my desk while the fan heater under my desk blows out dusty hot air. I'm still jiggling my legs from the irritation of having my colleague expounding his religious developmental theories for what felt like about half an hour. Every time I thought he was done he started again, "please go away!" is all I was thinking. This lack of tolerance and compassion is symptomatic of my hungry state.

The weekend was an interesting mixture. The end of the week saw me exhausted and emotional after Thursday's fast. I severed a relationship on Friday morning, convinced that I needed to separate myself. However, later that day, the friend in question asked me not to take such extreme actions and coaxed me back into his bliss. Seeing him was like a holiday in the sun. I then decided on Saturday that I needed to address my nutrition as the fasting is taking too great a toll on me physically, mentally AND emotionally. Sunday I went food shopping and have some delicious menus sorted out for the week now. Organised, I know! I am even going to have chicken wings following my fast on Thursday, a rare taste of meat. Of course I want to spend every lunch time in Mechwi eating the supremely made chicken and lamb shish but that is a very expensive road indeed! See, all I can think about is food right now. This is something I have noticed; the benefit from fasting I find comes after the fast is finished. Maybe it's just me...

Sunday I was able to spend some time with mon ami francais Yoann and talk about the proposed trip to Marrakech. Plans change. It turns out that his friend lives in Casablanca, not Marrakech, so if we want to stay with him, we will be enjoying the more Northern area of Morocco! I dont mind so much, but as it happens I have been reviewing the plan in any case. To move forward with the development of my massage business I am going to have to clock up some hefty CPD hours (courses=money!) amongst other things.

Last night a career concept I have been mulling over in my mind recently kept coming back to me. I'm not willing to put it out there right now, it's more likely to be a bit of a 5 year plan than a 'this time next year' plan, but to be honest it is refreshing to have any professional plan in mind that extends beyond the next few months. It gives life to one of my favourite mantras: 'Variety is the spice of life'. What are the things that I value?

1. Helping, developing and inspiring people
2. Variety - different projects that may coincide but have a tangible conclusion
3. Learning new skills, information, industries, languages etc
4. Teamwork/Parnerships - working alongside people and in teams
5. Connecting with people
6. Space and time for myself and my son
8. Adventure and travel
9. Creativity, ideas, inspiration

I believe my business idea is the only idea I have had so far which incorporates all of the above. I can't wait to get started in gaining the training and experience I need to achieve my goal!

Maybe this is it. My BINGO MOMENT!