The Birth of Bliss

The bread of life ;)

The feelings of bliss today are increasing, underlying everything. How can I describe it? It is a deep sense of wellbeing and gratitude for the gift of life and all its colour and movement. It feels wonderful! I'm not saying that I don't have irritable moments but what I can say is that after those moments pass, this is the place I am returning to again and again. Time is passing, events are occuring, but I am feeling more and more centered in myself, so that things wash around me like so much water, and I am the point of stillness and peace.

I believe this to be a direct result of the fasting that David prescribed following our kinesiology session on the phone. How is this? Am I going mad with starvation perhaps? In fact the opposite is occuring! Due to my regular dawn to dusk fast (Mondays and Thursdays), I was initially feeling a drop in energy and resulting emotional disruption, lack of patience etc. However, I realized that this was a result of my general lack of a balanced wholesome diet, my reliance on sugary foods to boost my energy being the main problem. I realized that if I was to continue working in this way I needed to address my nutrition. I made a meal plan, a shopping list and made it a priority. Guess what? I started having the time of my life making delicious, nutritious food for myself each day! A knock-on effect of this was that instead of giving in to exhaustion and allowing washing up to accumulate over the week I actually started doing it daily so that I could use things again to cook the following day. I began to take more notice of our living environment and the niggling in the back of my mind when things needed to be tidied or cleaned transformed into the motivation to actually spend time doing it - whatever time was available. For example last night I baked bread, and used the rising time to clean the bathroom and kitchen! I went to bed very late but it was worth it as the bread is delicious...


I never thought I was any good at domestic activities and I have always wanted to be. Part of my womanhood was sad about that. However it turns out that I AM good at it - I'm great at it! and taking care of my body by feeding myself healthy food and paying attention to our home environment has given me the energy and motivation that I needed. The home fires are definitely burning again, and I feel such gratitude for this process because I now feel more content that I am giving the consideration and attention to my son that he needs. All of these things I have felt as lacking in my life were already present. Now that I am slowly surrendering to the divine and allowing a measure of discipline to bring gratitude to the surface I am able to embrace these gifts for what they are! Not an inconvenience but a blessing.


The transformation continues, so watch this space, but who would have thought that a simple regular fast would infuse my life with so much bliss?

God is Good

A masterpiece Bistela.... soooo good!

I am no longer counting the days that I fast. Since living more and more in the eternal present time has lost its distinction somewhat and I will refer to a calendar for the date and a clock for the time when necessary. It's a beautiful thing! This morning I watched my son zooming off ahead of me on his scooter under the naked tree branches and I felt a real sense of joy. Thought came to me 'I don't even care what day it is, or what time, I just love this moment!'

My fascination with food continues. I'm so pleased with the results of my endeavours that I have been taking pictures of all the meals I am cooking. They look so pretty after all. There is nothing like a regular fast to make you grateful for the food the Divine has provided. Tonight I am making bread. It is keeping me up far too late but it is also giving me no excuse not to do some chores that I want to keep up with around the flat. 'Well, since I'm waiting for the dough to rise anyway...' bread is precious, and homemade bread is just divine. This particular dough contains sesame and fennel seeds and a little sugar - YUM! I will of course oblige with pictures when they are done... as long as they look as appealing as they are meant to!! In any case the balanced diet that I am now eating is giving me the energy to achieve more. The fasting mentality is keeping me diligent about food preparation and the added nutrition is giving me energy to do more around the home. I still want more space and that will come.

I have aquired an unexpected ally in the form of Mountain Ginger, the company drafted Financial Advisor. He is full of ideas to ensure that I get the best out of life, albeit mainly from a financial/legal perspective. That is just the kind of support that I need! Alhamdulillah.

God is good.